++mAddY giRL++

Shifted......

2008-01-28T17:19:00.000+08:00

After 3 years +++ with Blogger.......
I decided to moved on... Move House.....

With Immediate effect..... I'll moved to www.leine07.wordpress.com

See you guys there......

Cornflak Nibbles

2008-01-09T22:56:00.000+08:00

MY First Handmade Cornflakes Nibbles~~~~

Hahaha.... dunno why... feel like doing this... Went to Cold Storage in the afternoon, during my lunch break, bought cornflakes and marshmallows.... Downloaded the recipe... and I made them!

Not up to standard... Shall try again.... and make them for CNY!!!!!

I love Cornflakes!!

To be complered in 2008...

2008-01-05T14:20:00.000+08:00

In 2008, I.....

- need to change job!
- gotta cut down on clubbing(haha!)
- must not get drunk anymore (the feeling is terrible)
- want to go on a holiday trip with my family again
- want a ~~holiday~~ shopping trip with the girls!
- need to lose weight
- need to drive more, so that my dad will finally let me drive without him by my side. (He thinks I'm dangerous)
- hope to meet up with my ex collegues more.
- hope my grandma will get well soon.
- more majong session! (Win more money!!!)
- hope to have a more interesting and enjoyable birthday
- have to be happy!!!
- want to earn more money

Ok...... that's all for now.... I think so.

A recap of 2007...

2008-01-05T13:57:00.000+08:00

In 2007:

- I had my first company's DND during the festive season.
- became good friends with my colleagues.
- had a couple of ups and downs during those work days at DHL.
- waking up early in the morning to prepare my lunch for the day, bento lunch in office.
- Taiwan again in March with my cousin and her best friends.
- ~~A good~~ An important went to heaven.
- Had my first camping trip to Sentosa.
- More clubbing with friends.
- Got drunk a couple of times. (Opps!)
- Quited the job at DHL, finally.
- Joined my current company (but regretted now).
- Made new collegues.
- Had 2 bad tempered bosses.
- Believed in someone that I should not have believed.
- Had more gathering, gossiping, dinner-ing with my dear girls.
- Found our manicurist, and more manicure with Kalu.
- My grandma was diagosed with hydriod, stayed in the hospital for quite a while.
- Made many new friends.
- More majong sessions.
- Had a most memorable X'mas eve.

NYE 2007

2008-01-02T22:29:00.000+08:00

~~This year's~~ Last year's NYE was spent with the girls. Had this nice cpsy gathering at The Tea Party. Nice tea, comfy sofa, peaceful ambience....
A different NYE, away from the crowd. ~~Counted down~~ Monopoly-ing to 2008!!!

Happy 2008~

2008 Resolutions......

2007-12-30T23:20:00.000+08:00

Was watching the news a few days back...
There was this report saying that many people did not fulfil their 2007 resolutions, and often people won't. They will make big resolutions for the following year, but in the end, they'll end up no having them come true. When being interviewed, some said they make big resolution so that they can really work hard for it, even though they cannot fulfil it, but at least they tried.

Well, so what's my 2008 resolutions?
Actually, I dont know....
At this point of time, I do not believe in making resolutions.
I just wanna be happy!

Happy advance 2008 everyone!

Pissed off....

2007-12-26T14:14:00.000+08:00

She commit herself in her job, but she gets nothing in return. She can't even have peace on X'mas eve. Her time is no longer hers...

I'm indeed very pissed off. What's wrong with not answering my boss call on X'mas eve? If you called during office hours, and I did not picked up, ok I'll admit its my fault, but you actually called at 10.39pm!!! What the F! What can I do then? I'm not in office, I can't do anything. The next thing I know, you bombed me with a nasty email. What did I do to deserve this?

I'm giving up. That's it. I can't stay any longer. I'll go crazy. I think I'm gonna quit after new year. I think I got to stay till then.

Maddy is Mad!
Maddy is going Crazy.....
Maddy is disappointed.

不想懂得

2007-12-20T10:57:00.000+08:00

当世界不知不觉的变了
有时候我怀念以前的我
作的梦虽然远远的
想像是一种快乐
拥有了同时也失去什黱
而眷恋原来会带来软弱
你让我在雾里成熟心开始曲折
我不想舍得不想懂得
是谁惹谁言不由衷
说谎伤害都是不安犯的错
怕抱不紧什黱
我不想舍得不想懂得
谁说割爱才更深刻
彼此依赖是爱不是负荷
能握著手就是感动的

A new year ahead....

2007-12-14T15:19:00.000+08:00

2007 is coming to an end soon. Time passes so fast...

What have you done in 2007? Can you recap back? 2007 can be consider both a good and bad year for me.

Work - Left DHL and joined my current company. It’s not that DHL is not a good company, I've got a good boss there, plus really nice and friendly colleagues there. Plus, I got to know some really good and loyal friends there. I'm glad that we are still in contact. They are like my family there, the bond there is so close. The only thing that I don't like is getting backstab by the colleague whom you treat her that well, but in the end, you end up being complained by her. Oh well, I think I have to thank her for the backstabbing, if not I would not have seen her true colours. I still miss my dearest colleagues there.
I don't know whether I made a correct choice in changing of job or not, but well, at least its somewhere that I'm familiar with. But… it’s definitely not a place that I would work for long. Seriously, who would want to work in a company where the bosses will quarrel once every 2 days, or should I say, fight once every 2 months. I think if I work for long, I probably die of heart attack one fine day. Maybe I shall just stay on for a while more to gain more exposure before moving on.

Life - Life.... How should I start? I learnt the word "Treasure". This word means a lot to me. People always say, it's when you lose something/someone important, then you'll come to realize that that one is the one that you treasure most. I lost someone earlier this year. If I know he will leave that soon, I would really have treasure him. But, it’s all too late. Whatever I say or do cannot bring him back. I just hope he is doing well in that faraway land. I’ve also learnt not to believe in someone that easily. Well, some of my friends say that I’m stupid and foolish (I know that, I’m getting cleverer now ok? Hahaha). Yea, indeed I am. But after that particular incident, I realize that I cannot trust people that easily, I have to learn to say NO at time, and I believe that I will be able to do it. I can say that I’m very lucky to have a bunch of really good friends around me, especially my dearest girls. They are really the wonderful ones. Although we may not meet up as often as last time, but at least we have some really nice and wonderful gatherings. Kalu dearest, my listening partner, but it seems like I listen to you more that you listen to me. But I really appreciate you to always meet me up for shopping, manicure, coffee …. Binbin, I’m really glad to have you by my side for the past 8 years. We got ups and downs in our friendship, but I believe that made us treasure each other more. Thanks for all the advices, those scoldings, I really appreciate it. Rinn and krissy, though we may not be able to meet up as often as before, but I do treasure you 2 as my friends. I really enjoy the times we spent together, be it KTV or whatever. You girls really bring joy and laughters to my life. For those other friends that I've left out, you guys are not forgotten, you all too have a really important place in my heart. I and glad to have known you all. I’ve got a very funny and loving family, although we do shout at each others at time, but I know our bond is there. I love my family. =)

I really hope 2008 will be another good, wonderful and fruitful year ahead…. And I believe it will….

2007 is a great one, 2008 would be better.

Sometimes, I go crazy...

2007-12-08T00:20:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I go crazy....

I did one crazy thing today. Hahaha....

I went to see .........................

星光帮 - 星光4少

Yoga so cute!!!!

And I actuallu queue to get their signature~ Opps..

Even shaked their hands~ Hahahaa....

下一次微笑

2007-12-04T14:53:00.000+08:00

上一次微笑之後世界遺漏了什麼怎麼會突然忘了許多感動

難過的事總有好多頭頂的天空總是灰濛濛流淚的時候

卻忘了為什麼淡紅色指頭陪我煎熬黑色破曉在嘴邊咬了又咬

我好想忘掉為何煩惱對著天空大聲的叫

下次微笑你會看到我真心上揚我嘴角

有人會在天涯海角種一片草原看我奔跑

下次微笑我會驕傲放晴的感覺多麼好

不放棄總會等得到我那熬過風暴真的微笑

曖昧讓人變得貪心直到等待失去意義

無奈我和你寫不出結局放遺憾的美麗停在這裡

Gathering with the gers.....

2007-12-02T23:20:00.001+08:00

29/11/2007 - Gathering at my place.......

Yeah... We had dinner at my place. Home cooked food. 5 dishes, cooked by ME! with helps from the Girls.. I'm the Main Cook~

In the kitchen, Rinn is very noisy, but it wouldn't be fun without her.

Dishes for the day:
1. ABC soup
2. Steam fresh prawns
3. Steam Egg
4. Stir Fried Broccoli with garlic and prawns
5. Sambal Sotong

We finished all the food, ehhh ok, except the Egg.... So Full, was so busy eating and cooking, so did not take much photos....

Only 3 la....

Enjoying the food~

The dishes.. eaten halfway le la...

Carol, dunno looking at wat la....

After dinner, we watched Tv and played Monopoly. Ya, Monopoly~ Play till so high... stupid rules, shouting here and there. Really had a nice gathering....

Shall have one again gerS!!!!

Love ya all~~~

What's the decision?

2007-11-27T23:17:00.000+08:00

So many things happen at office... I really don't know what to do. Don't feel like staying there anymore.......

Was being asked, if have a similar job + a bit more, but based in china, would I be interested?
Should I try it out? Which means I'll have to stay in China to work?

Different life, different culture.
But, good exposure!

Should I or should I not...
Advises please, every one, any one????

当你离开的时候

2007-11-24T23:39:00.000+08:00

我只能低着头发呆
让回忆渗透脑袋渐渐变空白

我把它当做个意外
但内心还想不开
因为我明白其实你都还在
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

我可以当作已释怀
他对我也算关怀他看不出来

我知道这样不应该
在他身上找依赖
算不算是种出卖因为你一直在
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有

越是没用力越是心痛
我想起了你给我的感动
想起我们之间的温柔
我想起了我们第一次牵手
我闭上眼想起当时你许下的承诺
把你整个心都叫给我
然而到后来我什么都没有
当你离开的时候

Yoz...

2007-11-22T23:57:00.000+08:00

My dear girls....

Plz remember....

29th Nov, Thurs.
My housE!
WoooHooo.....

See Ya den~

HappiNess....

2007-11-21T22:58:00.000+08:00

I want My HappiNess!

GiVe Me My HappInESS~

=)

Never~

2007-11-20T23:06:00.001+08:00

Never say I ❤ you, if you really don't care.
Never talk about feelings, if you really aren't there.
Never hold my hand, if you are going to break my heart.
Never say you are going to, if you never plan to start.
Never look into my eyes, if all you do is lie.
Never say "Hello", if you really mean "Goodbye"
If you really mean forever, never say forever, cos forever makes me cry~

2007-11-19T17:17:00.001+08:00

When I cry,
i hope that u will lend me ur
shoulders and wipe off
my tears for me..

When I am angry,
i hope you will understand why and
cheer me up
with ur crappiness..

When I look at you,
i feel blessed to have u by my side..

When I keep quiet,
i'm probably upset or tinking abt
certain tings..

When I am unreasonable,
i just wanna feel pampered..

When I give you a cheeky smile,
i'm in a playful mood..

When I ask you a question,
i want a honest answer from u..

When I keep prompting you,
I hope you will share your problems
with me...

When I hug you,
i just want to feel ur body heat and
heart beat..

When I kiss you,
my heart melts..

When I keep asking you "are you free on a that day?"
this means i wanna spend that day
with you.. yesh,
only you..

When I am gone...
i hope u still love me..

KTV-ing

2007-11-19T12:18:00.000+08:00

Went KTV-ing with the girls on Sunday.....
We tricked Rinn in coming to sing with us.... Wahahaa...
Lucky she came down, she really cheer us up. Love those KTV sessions with the girls :)

Well, really kind of depressed lately, lots of things to settle.
One problem comes after another.
When will this finish huh?

Empty Promises

2007-11-18T04:27:00.001+08:00

He told her he will not be the same again. But once again, he went MIA.

Why do he always have to leave without a word?
4 years ago its the same. Now, still never change.

What should she do?

Have you ever wonder?

2007-11-16T23:31:00.000+08:00

Have you ever wonder....

One day you lose your memory, you remember every thing except for the one that you love.
He's always there for you, but you just don't remember anything to do with him?

What will you do?

2007-11-14T22:57:00.000+08:00

Forget it...
I'll just treat it as a lesson learnt.
I should not have trust someone so easily. Blame it on my stupidity. At least I'm now cleverer.
I'm going to carry on with my life now and stop thinking of those worthless things.

2007-11-13T22:52:00.000+08:00

I shouldn't have trust you.

Stupidity!

2007-11-12T15:21:00.000+08:00

I want to trust you, but, I can't.

How do you expect me to trust u?

Sms - No reply?

I helped you, but who will help me now?

Movie

2007-11-12T00:05:00.001+08:00

I realise that I've not watch movie for a very long time!

Hmmm... Maybe I shall catch a movie soon...

Who wanna watch movie!?

真的吗

2007-11-11T23:45:00.000+08:00

离别的话我不想要现在清楚听见
而你可以不用回答什么都不要说
我的笑容没有快乐是否看得出来
昏黄的天别告诉我快下起雨了
清晨的风贴在脸上吹乾落下的泪
一整夜的思绪难眠等待你的回音
爱情没有太多理由可以不用要求
但希望你明白了解真心在这里
不像你爱可以轻松
我真的爱你爱你你还是走
i miss you i miss you i miss you
baby everyday i miss you
心里的深处思念依然在
你真的不再回来 i love you
i love you i love you
baby everyday i love you
不要让我懂真的不想懂
想要躺在你胸口

不像你爱可以轻松
我真的爱你爱你你还是走
i miss you i miss you i miss you
baby everyday i miss you
心里的深处思念依然在
你真的不再回来 i love you
i love you i love you
baby everyday i love you
不要让我懂真的不想懂
想要躺在你胸口
i miss you i miss you i miss you
baby everyday i miss you
心里的深处思念依然在
你真的不再回来 i love you
i love you i love you
baby everyday i love you
不要让我懂真的不想懂
想要躺在你胸口

Gone..

2007-11-11T23:00:00.000+08:00

Gone... Everything is gone....

I'll never find it back again`

2007-11-11T19:55:00.000+08:00

我还以为我们
不同与别人
我还以为不可能的
不会不可能
你的姿态
你的亲赖
我存在的你的存在
你以为爱
就是被爱
你会活了我的崇拜
所以明白
所以离开
所以不再为爱而爱
自己存在在你之外

2007-11-10T19:53:00.000+08:00

Please mind your own business...
I know how to settle my own problems... I appreciate your help. But you're making it worse!

I know you care for me, but, I don;t like the way you do things. I'm sorry, but please. Stop it!

Thank you!

2007-11-08T14:19:00.000+08:00

Krissy's B'dae celebration last night~ Met the girls + kevin after work at PS. Has dinner at Pastamania, bought a small oreo cheesecake for her. Cam Whoring.. Hahahaaa.... Den on to Plush! 2 bottles of liquor. Krissy went a bit dipsy. Playing 'up /down' and 'five-ten' with the gers and krissy's polymates. Long time since we last had so much fun with all the gers present! Love them~~~ Anyway... Happy B'day Krissy!!!

B'day Ger with her cakE!

The Gers~~

The loving Couple~

Mirror Image us....

Yea... We're at Plush~

More photos to come~~

2007-11-07T16:22:00.000+08:00

I chose to believe him.

But each and every time I'm proven wrong.

What have I done to deserve this?

I tried my best to help when he's in need of help, but what did i get in the end?

Maybe I should not have fallen for him in the first place.

Broken~

2007-11-06T21:21:00.000+08:00

This time round....

I don't know whether I should believe him anot.
I've had enough. Really...

Why am I so stupid?
I should have listened to you guys.

I'm going crazy, yet I've to act as nothing happened at work, at home~

I'm gonna break down real soon.

2007-11-06T09:32:00.001+08:00

I admit I'm naive to believe him....

2007-11-04T23:15:00.000+08:00

金色的舞鞋伴着音乐
baby你的眼睛是一弯深邃的湖水
哦忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美
让我眩晕在悬崖边谁知一睁眼就不见
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转
一直到黑发变成了银线
waiting for you waiting for you
直到永远

哦忽明忽灭掩藏不可思议的美
让我眩晕在悬崖边谁知一睁眼就不见
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
waiting for you

waiting for you waiting for you
waiting for you
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you kiss me at the night
为何你cinderella 留给我一望无际的思念
waiting for you i'm waiting for you
waiting for you come here to my dream
牵着你不断旋转一直到黑发变成了银线
waiting for you waiting for you
waiting for you

Come upon this song suddenly today....
Haven't heard this song for quite a long time.
Remember that time I used to love this song so much...
A must sing song at KTV.
But now...

Each and every time I heard this song... I've got wierd feelins.. complicated ones..

Well... its a nice song though...

2007-11-04T10:01:00.001+08:00

我搞不懂
我们到底怎么了
诚实的背后
是否
住着伤口
我想不透
我们的爱怎么了
雨下过以后
是否
能让什么
复活

2007-11-02T00:51:00.000+08:00

Jie's blog entries are getting more and more interesting by the day...
That's wy I love reading his blog....
k la... Jie not ah pek ok..

Hahaha....

Feeling damn emo now... dunno y....

Loneliness... emptyness.......

2007-10-31T22:50:00.000+08:00

She's trying to forget about him...

Trying very hard...

Sleepless nights, mornings with blank mind.
Confused and complicated feelings.

Maybe it takes time...

1 year... Maybe 2... or 3... Or 4?

2007-10-29T23:09:00.000+08:00

Everything is in a mess!

I'm sick an tired of life....

2007-10-28T22:30:00.000+08:00

Friends around me tell me that I'm stupid...

I've got lots of advices from them, ... but I just don't seemed to take them.
Maybe I'm really stupid.

I keep ~~lying to~~ telling myself... Maybe this, .... Maybe that..... Because of this, because of that.

I tell myself, stop giving myself those stupid reasons, but in the end, I still choose to believe him.

I know drinking is bad for health. But I just can't stop myself from drinking. The reason because drinking makes me forget things... Well at least at that very moment.

My dear friends.... I know you all care for me, sometimes, I'm stubborn.
I have my own view of things. Sorry to make you all worry.

I'll get out of it somehow... hopefully~

2007-10-27T21:59:00.000+08:00

我怀念的是无话不说
我怀念的是一起作梦
我怀念的是争吵以后
还是想要爱你的冲动

我放手
我让座
假洒脱
谁懂我多么不舍得

太爱了
所以我
没有哭
没有说

2007-10-27T15:43:00.000+08:00

Dunno its good or bad....

I'm back to my drinking days again....

Feel so stress and upset recently, well maybe drinking makes me forget abt those stupid things for a while.

Hmmm... long time since I met up with the old DHL colleagues.... Nice meeting up with them yesterday... drink, sing, play....

Maybe I'm gonna spend my weekend for the coming months... drinking~

I want to forget all the unhappy things.....
I want to stop thinking ...

2007-10-25T22:17:00.000+08:00

Are we going to carry on like this?

I'm not sure~

2007-10-24T11:21:00.000+08:00

Everything doesn't seem to be right in my life?

Everything so fuc*ed up!

Its driving me crazy....

Pray hard that everything will be over soon!

2007-10-22T00:08:00.001+08:00

I realise I'm actually very very stupid.

Can someone help me?

2007-10-21T15:47:00.000+08:00

是我想太多
你总这样说但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多我也这样说
这是唯一能安慰我的理由

2007-10-20T18:49:00.000+08:00

Link : Dark Alley 2.1

The story with a sad ending....

Cherish the love one beside you before you regret it

Put The Glass Down~

2007-10-20T12:02:00.000+08:00

One night there was a woman at the airport who had to wait for several hours before catching her next flight. While she waited she bought a book and a pack of biscuits to spend the time. She looked for a place to sit and waited. She was deep into her book, when suddenly she realized that there was a young man sitting next to her who was stretching his hand, with no concern whatsoever, and grabbing the pack of cookies lying between them. He started to eat them one by one. Not wanting to make a fuss about it she decided to ignore him. The woman, slightly bothered, ate the cookies and watched the clock, while the young and shameless thief of biscuits was also finishing them. The woman started to get really angry at this point and thought "If I wasn't such a good and educated person, I would have given this daring man a black eye by now." Every time she ate a biscuit, he had one too. The dialogue between their eyes continued and when only one biscuit was left, she wondered what was he going to do. Softly and with a nervous smile, the young man grabbed the last biscuit and broke it in two. He offered one half to the woman while he ate the other half.Briskly she took the biscuit and thought, "What an insolent man! How uneducated! He didn't even thank me!" She had never met anybody so fresh and sighed relieved to hear her flight announced. She grabbed her bags and went towards the boarding gate refusing to look back to where that insolent thief was seated. After boarding the plane and nicely seated, she looked for her book which was nearly finished by now. While looking into her bag she was totally surprised to find her pack of biscuits nearly intact. If my biscuits are here, she thought feeling terribly, those others were his and he tried to share them with me. Too late to apologize to the young man, she realized with pain, that it was her who had been insolent, uneducated and a thief, and not him. How many times in our lives, had we known with certainty that something happened in a certain way, only to discover later that it wasn't true? How many times has our lack of trust within us made us judge other people unfairly with our conceited ideas, often far away from reality. That is why we have to think twice before we judge others. Let's always give others the benefit of the doubt before we think badly of them.

2007-10-20T11:58:00.000+08:00

Sometimes I get emotional
Sometimes I do some stupid things
Sometimes I say what I should just keep inside

Sometimes I'm sad 'bout everything
Sometimes I'm mad and break some things
Sorry times ten but you just got in the way
Sometimes I'm just a pain
And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

Sometimes I feel like crying
Laying down and dying
That's when I need you
Laughing's always easy
But sometimes I'm just scared you'll leave me
That's when I feel.. emotional

You say I'm just impossible
Totally unpredictable
I'm just a girl, get used to it
No big deal

You cant change me
Why would you try
I'm no angel, but I can make you smile

And that's the way it is
That's just the way I am

2007-10-19T09:58:00.000+08:00

从皮包里扯出我们的照片
沙发要移到客厅的另一边
晚饭后你可以多抽几口香烟
已经没什么人会埋怨

晴天阴天今天又是星期天
唯一的打算是醒得晚一些
反正我不知道怎样打发时间
出门或不出门没差别

一个人到底应该睡右边或左边
两个人连一次争吵都值得纪念
一个人偶尔感到寂寞再所难免
你的气味还留在枕头边

一个人我重新适应一切不方便
两个人不一定就成全一个世界
一个人关灯看见记忆的横切面
没有光线过去那些情节更明显

...更明显...

2007-10-18T22:33:00.000+08:00

I Miss You~

2007-10-18T10:52:00.000+08:00

I give up!

Letting Go isn't that easy after all~

2007-10-16T22:17:00.000+08:00

他说他很爱她他说会守护她
他送她玫瑰花一切美得不像话
从朋友变成情人她不再只有自己
他爱他爱得彻底真心溢满了甜蜜
时间看清一个人开始令人昏沉沉
他像变了一个人太蛮横
她开始悬著疑问不想再等他承认
不再要任何伤痕
谁爱谁谁又流乾了眼泪
谁后悔难分难舍太伤悲
他爱谁谁应该止住眼泪
她心碎谁又该乾脆离开
谁爱谁谁又能反反覆覆
谁后悔谁在忍受著孤独
谁了解他退出她孤独
谁了解谁退出谁孤独
爱得太盲目
谁不满足

2007-10-16T16:36:00.000+08:00

忘记不是一件容易的事。

我在努力，很努力。

祝我成功！

2007-10-15T10:44:00.001+08:00

You're really in your head today, mulling over the past. Stop reliving old mistakes and missed opportunities. Realize everything turned out the way it was meant to. It's time to unpack that baggage and move forward.

Weekend

2007-10-13T23:33:00.000+08:00

周末。。。

通常周末是每个人最最期待的，可是我却不以为然。

多么希望周末能快点过去，那我就不会整天在家胡思乱想。

毕竟忙碌的工作能让人把不开心的事抛开。

我学会控制自己表情
不让别人看出心中秘密
下一次听到别人提起你
就可以不去在意
热热的眼泪不能自己
朋友的定义谁能决定
等思念退去心就可以平静
我还在乎你
我想这是一个过渡时期
要学着忘记
还需要一些些勇气
我还在想你
独自承受这个过渡时期

不会再爱你
我早已经决定

2007-10-13T15:18:00.001+08:00

4年前，她尝试放弃爱情，也尝试努力的把他忘记。

4年后，她又得尝试努力的把他忘记。
她受够了。

等待，对她来说是痛苦的。

短暂的痛苦，好过长期的精神折磨。

放弃可能会比较哈好吧。

不要怪她整天胡思乱想。
她就是这样。
以前是，现在也是，以后也是。

或许把他忘记是能解决问题的为一方式吧。

2007-10-13T00:24:00.000+08:00

She told herself not to believe him again~

She'll never believe him again

2007-10-12T20:24:00.000+08:00

Pics for the KTV session we had the other time.
Crazy KTV session.... Love the girls..

After starting work, we didn't have much time to gather for such sessions.
Hope we can have more crazy times in future!
Love ya all~

2007-10-11T22:01:00.001+08:00

Happy Birthday Ah Yi!!!

2007-10-11T10:48:00.000+08:00

These few days I've been listening to YES 933's 罐头剧场。 A production by Cruz Teng. An interesting story...

In this story, there's this doctor - 陈伟伦, he said this : "四年的时间，应该足够忘记一个人吧?"

Do you agree on this?

四年，说长不长，说短不短。要真正的忘记一个人，四年的时间够吗?

如果忘记一个人有哪么容易的话，或许就不会有人感到痛苦了吧。

我心想，如果能在一夜之间把一个人忘掉，那该多好啊！

最近心里有很多感触，也不知道为什么。

哈。。哈。。哈。。

2007-10-11T09:52:00.000+08:00

我终于变得不多愁善感
回忆还像心跳那么难忘
拥抱的热还留在我们的身上
缘分却不能反抗
爱人不变朋友实在太难
希望离别能让以后
更快乐更幸福更美满
漫长路上你帮我背的行囊
因为有你的汗变成珍藏
我给你的补偿是为你打扮

2007-10-10T12:16:00.000+08:00

或许是我们缺少勇气
不敢踏出彼此的安全区
或许是思念情绪
美得让人质疑
多可惜我们还是
免不了得放弃

it wasn't meant to be
事到如今我只能安慰自己
it wasn't meant to be
事到如今只能说
我们无能为力
可是你我心底
清楚明白这份爱若坚持走下去
清楚明白这份爱当初若坚持走下去
我们会在一起
it wasn't meant to be

遗憾我变得小心翼翼
关于你的话题尽量回避
但难免有人好奇
关心起我和你
怕唤起记忆一概回应
心想好的一句

与你分离说好那天不下雨
我心都快碎了
怎么忍住哭泣

2007-10-09T22:49:00.000+08:00

珍惜眼前人

一旦错过了，就很难再找回了。

2007-10-07T20:37:00.000+08:00

I Miss the times that we used to go Ikea for breakfast on saturdays.

I Miss the times when we spent time in your kitchen trying to cook some nice food, ehh.. some awful la...

I Miss the times that we would go cycling at pasir ris park.

I Miss the times that when we used to visit Sentosa out of a sudden.

I Miss the time that we would chat at Coffee Bean like nobody's business.

I Miss the times that we had together.

I can never have those times back.
But I know you will be happy up there.
You will always be in my heart.
I'll move on with my life....

I Miss You.

2007-10-06T15:16:00.000+08:00

Hump!

Supposed to go Dbl O tonite.... But guess gotta cancel already~
They rest not free~

Will have to spend my sat at home~

2007-10-03T00:05:00.001+08:00

Maybe I think too much into things ba...

I needa get out of it...
Yes... I need to get out of it.

God.....
Please bless me with good luck....
Please help me to forget about all the unhappiness.
Please help me get over with things.

2007-10-02T17:37:00.001+08:00

I just love hanging out with Carol - my dear Hahahaa......

Shopping... Dinner + Chit chatting...

Had a nice talk with her, from the past to present...

We gossiped about friends (Opps!) Talk about the past... On how we knew each other, on our clubbing times, on common times, sentosa..... Haha...

Den we even called Nik.... Timmy's "father" Wahahaaa...
Missed that happy times....
How I wished we could go back~

We shall haven more chatting session~ And clubbing too...Opps~ ShhhHh.....

Love ya my dear carol~

2007-10-02T14:01:00.001+08:00

可不可以让我回到
突然长大那一天
那一刻他的吻
改变我的世界

可不可以这个夏天
这些故事能永远
球场边界外线
我们已越走越远

我可以划一个圈
把自己关在里面
把回忆挡在外面
却不能停止想念
在我的天空蔓延
他有的善良和善变
我可以划一个圈
当作是完美句点
还他自由的蓝天
却不能停止想念
一幕幕甜美画面
如果放弃了这一切
那么在我身体里的灵魂是谁

可不可以让我练习
心碎时候有笑脸
等着他已走远
才能落下眼泪

可不可以让我消失在
地平线这瞬间
哭过了冷却了
起风了却不能飞

所以我可以一直拥抱心碎

2007-10-01T17:41:00.000+08:00

Went Ktv-ing with the gers last night... Finally a proper KTV session.
Its always so fun and enjoyable Ktv-ing with the girls!

Been feeling so EMO recently.... I'm just not myself... I need to find myself back!
Someone/Anyone .... Let's go drinking! Wahahaa...
Dbl O on Sat, anyone? Long time no chiong le! I wanna relax...

Carol intro me to Facebook .... and now I'm so addicted to it...Wahahaaa....

So Fun~ Hahaa...
Have to stop playing le.. Gotta meet Carol at Bishan later... Shop Arh!
Heee....

2007-10-01T10:56:00.000+08:00

我努力的仰着脸孔
试着眼泪不往下流
别往下流
不安的感觉到什么
在我生活中不再相同
很不相同
想要说
却还沉默
伸出手
无法触碰
天空突然一片辽阔
原来你是真的已经离开我
在我不熟悉的世界过新的生活
闭上眼让泪水滑落
此刻你已真的永远离开我
在另外一个没有我的世界
自由的走

2007-10-01T01:06:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to convince myself that I hate you!

2007-10-01T01:04:00.000+08:00

只剩下钢琴陪我谈了一天
睡着的大提琴安静的旧旧的

我想你已表现的非常明白
我懂我也知道你没有舍不得

你说你也会难过我不相信
牵着你陪着我也只是曾经
希望他是真的比我还要爱你
我才会逼自己离开

你要我说多难堪我根本不想分开
为什么还要我用微笑来带过
我没有这种天份包容你也接受他
不用担心的太多我会一直好好过
你已经远远离开我也会慢慢走开
为什么我连分开都迁就着你
我真的没有天份安静的没这么快
我会学着放弃你是因为我太爱你

2007-09-29T23:50:00.001+08:00

She ~~stopped~~ tried stopping herself from sms-ing him....

Still Trying..

2007-09-29T23:41:00.000+08:00

I'm trying to forget...
Dun ask me why, I just wanna forget.

New Blog Skin

2007-09-29T12:35:00.000+08:00

Finally a new blog skin...... Haha... Not that perfect though...

Will find a better one soon... Meanwhile... Ill leave it like that~

Happy BirthDay! My deAr Blog!!!

2007-09-28T11:42:00.000+08:00

My blog is offially 3 Years Old this Month....

HaHa.....

Time passed so fast... And I've been a blogger for 3 years...
That's amazing... I like to write about the things that happen around me, but I didn't expect myself to blog online. But, I did it.

Haha....

Happy Birthday !!! My dearest Blog!!!!

Lately.....

2007-09-26T21:46:00.000+08:00

Somehow, I feel like somethings are not the same as before...

I dunno how I got this feeling, but I just feel it that way.
Feeling rather stress lately... So many things happened at work. Major change of staffs... New colleagues, old ones gone...

I need some one to talk to, but I dunno who I can talk to... I dun wanna bother my friends....
They too have their own problems.
So, What can I do?

Act happy on the outside.... But actually Sad in heart....

If....

2007-09-26T09:35:00.000+08:00

If you have a choice, would you ....

Try to love someone who you don't love, or....

Wait for that someone whom you love to love you one day?

What's your choice?

倔强

2007-09-25T21:18:00.001+08:00

你曾说雨下的时候别低下头
要等候奇迹降落
我不懂曾想一起拥抱的彩虹
为什么只剩下我
原来呀爱情是不会留下什么
只留下残缺的我
能不能再把你的爱借点给我
好让我继续漂流
我的倔强疯狂不放逞强流浪
是否只剩一人在寂寞战场
你的摸样说谎眼光装傻躲藏
我逃亡
原来呀爱情是不会留下什么
只留下残缺的我
能不能再把你的爱借点给我
好让我继续漂流
我的倔强疯狂不放逞强流浪
是否只剩一人在寂寞战场
你的摸样说谎眼光装傻躲藏
我逃亡
我的倔强凝望去闯彷徨飞翔
是否应该不急一切去抵抗
你的摸样不想遗忘飘荡摇晃
我投降
我的倔强疯狂不放逞强流浪
是否只剩一人在寂寞战场
你的摸样说谎眼光装傻躲藏
我逃亡
我的倔强凝望去闯彷徨飞翔
是否应该不急一切去抵抗
你的摸样不想遗忘飘荡摇晃
我投降

Some Thoughts

2007-09-23T11:10:00.000+08:00

我时常在想：“要真心真意，彻彻底底的爱一个人真的有那么难吗？”

也许是吧。

我一直在找寻我身命里的那个“他”，

可是那是多么难的一件事啊。

仿佛像海底捞针。。。

有些人很幸运，彼此的“他”就在自己眼前。

相反的，其他的就没有那么幸运了，无论怎么找，到了最后还是两手空空。

可能是不懂得珍惜眼前人吧。

如果你爱上的人一个不爱你的人，你会怎么做？

不跟他表白，是因为害怕。害怕未来连朋友也做不成。

可是每回他提起别的女生时，心里总是觉得酸溜溜的，很不平横。

毕竟还是得靠缘分吧，

没有缘分的存在，也许也只能做一辈子的朋友吧。

Concerts....

2007-09-21T22:17:00.000+08:00

Lots of concerts this year end....

Ah mei, Xiao Zhu, Sammi & Fish Leong~

I wanna watch all... but no budget leh.... Hahaa...

If I can choose... I wanna watch this:

FISH LEONG [TODAY IS OUR VALENTINE’S DAY] SINGAPORE CONCERT 2007梁靜茹[今天情人節]2007新加坡演唱會

Anyone wanna watch????
Hahaaa....

2007-09-16T23:06:00.000+08:00

Was browsing a private blog of mine.. Found so many interesting articles there...
And also brought back many memoriee, be it good or bad....

Found this rather meaningful:

-letting go of a person u've just learned to love ...
-taking the risk to fall in love again ...
-shielding ur heart to love somebody ...
-reminiscing the good times u shared together ...
-trying to hide what u really feel ...
-trying to hide the tears that involuntarily fall from ur eyes ...
-giving up someone u never thought of giving up ...
-having the right love at the wrong time ...
-helping the one you love court your friend ...
-hiding ur relationship from someone else ...
-thinking of himevery waking and sleeping moment ...
-controlling ur feelings to avoid hurting a friend ...
-knowing all the while that he never even thinks a single thought of you ...
-letting go, because everytime you see the person,you only fall deeper
-holding back only to find out when it's too late, you both felt the same way, but were only scared to lose each other so much that you didn't let the feelings out ...
-finding the perfect guy but he doesnt love you ...
-loving a person too much ...
-waiting hurts like hell, ended up hearing "... she's the one i loved the most" ...
-agreeing to his wish to 'just be friends'.
-asking his freedom back bcoz he'd be happier with *her...
-seeing the one you love crying for someone else ...
-telling u lies where he'd been when actually, he was with *her
-he told u he'd be leaving u to return to his ex-fighting for that one thing that would make you happy ... that is, holding on to a person who can not guarantee you his commitment .. then, you are left hanging for the moment... he/she says, time will tell...
-but you still decided to hope in him/her and trust him/her ... [PRETENDING you're OK when inside you're dying... PRETENDING to be strong....]
-hearing that he wants to treated as a big bro ...
-sharing his future plans of the ger with you.
-let u noe his love story abt him and *her
-lying in bed each night, thinking of that person that wun be urs ...
-being with someone you can't actually love...
-pretending you don't love a person whom you actually love... being in love...
-letting go even if you really don't want to...-asking u to 'forget that everything happened' and be 'normal' friends again-having no right to say you are hurting, because it was your decision ...
-seeing the person you love hurt because of you... and not being able to help ...
-having the courage to say I LOVE YOU to the person you love and finding out afterwards that things will never be the same again when he doesnt treat you with the same closeness as before ...
-someone who is capable of destroying the wall that you have set for yourself, leaving you weak and vulnerable admitting that you love someone despite his imperfections ...
-falling in love with someone you didnt mean to fall in love with ...
-realizing how stupid your mistakes were that led to your break-up.
-finding out that the more you try to hate her/him, the more you end up loving her/him, perhaps even more than before...
-the thought that this guy who used to really love you and you loved him jus as much but it wun be the same ever again..
-sharing the one you love with someone else....
-making a promise, realizing that when the time has come for that promise to be fulfilled.... the commitment is no longer there...
-the hardest thing about love is believing it exists.

After you've been hurt...
learn to forgive ...
learn to trust and love again ...

No Motivation

2007-09-16T19:50:00.000+08:00

Feeling kind of lost recently...
No motivation to work at all...
Maybe its time... its time to tender?

Sick.........

2007-09-12T16:29:00.000+08:00

Sick~ Sick~ Sick~ Always sick....
Haiz...
Down with flu again.. Haiz... Think its b'cos of the rain lo...
Y do I keep falling sick?

Lack of Vit.C~

Happy BirthDay To me!!!

2007-09-11T23:38:00.000+08:00

Thanks to Those Who wished me Happy Birthday toDay~~

Thanks the Gers - Kalu, Krissy, Rinn & Yan Tian for having dinner with me + the Mango cake~ Rinn... Help me finish so that my wish can come true arh! Hahahaa...

Thanks my aunty + cuzzie Eunice for my b'day preSent... My long wished for DS lite... HeeHee...

Thanks Everyone! =)

隐形情人

2007-09-10T01:32:00.001+08:00

你怎么能说
未来有可能
飘忽的心
要如何平衡
已几次分开后
我对着镜子问
我以为我可以相信的人
怎么会这样子忽然转身
你的纯真
消失了吗
我不要再对你又爱又恨

我对我们
充满了疑问
怀疑像针
刺激了灵魂
到底是为甚么
你可以那么恨
我承认我努力相爱的人
有一天会把我伤得很深
你像影子
又假又真
可是我不知道你的爱有几分
隐形情人

我不要你的吻
我不要你的冷
多少的爱情像一只风筝
是飞得太远呢
还是我看不见
你的爱消失的时分
我的爱太愚蠢
我的心向下沉
多少的光阴是海里的针
回忆像一句笑话
我愿意
这样回答
我不害怕

我只能说
爱情未发生
我摸不到
爱我的情人
爱隐形了

2007-09-10T01:26:00.000+08:00

Its nice to have drinking session once in a while~
But had a bit too much last nite... Felf so lost... Dunno who I actually called and sms... haha...
Well, wat's done was done.

Thanks my friends for being there when i need ya all~ I really appreciate that~

Soetimes Love Just Ain't Enough

2007-09-08T22:03:00.000+08:00

I don't wanna lose you,
I don't wanna use you
just to have somebody by my side
And I don't wanna hate you
I don't wanna take you
But I don't wanna be the one to cry
That don't really matter to anyone, anymore
But like a fool I keep losing my place
And I keep seeing you walk through that door

But there's a danger in loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart you can't trust
There's a reason why people don't stay where they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Now I could never change you
I don't wanna blame you
Baby you don't have to take the fall
Yes I may have hurt you
But I did not desert you
Maybe I just wanna have it all
It makes a sound like thunder
It makes me feel like rain
And like a fool who will never see the truth
I keep thinking something's gonna change

And there's no way home
when it's late at night and you're all alone
Are there things that you wanted to say
Do you feel me beside you in your bed
there beside you where I used to lay
And there's a Danger in Loving somebody too much
And it's sad when you know it's your heart they can't touch.
There's a reason why people don't stay who they are
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough
Baby sometimes love just ain't enough

Cold

2007-09-08T21:59:00.000+08:00

I've been given the "cold" feeling again~

Met up with 2 of my ex nafa classmates today~ Doreen & Shiling....
Yeah~ Finally found time to meet up with them, Doreen's baby boy so cute~ Heee....
Nice chat and gathering~ Really miss those Nafa Times~
Hope we'll get together more often.... before Doreen goes back to US in Jan~

Lost

2007-09-04T20:36:00.000+08:00

I feel so lost without the ring.......

I want my rIng back!
But I know it's impossible~

Angry!

2007-09-04T10:13:00.000+08:00

I feel that everything that I've done is not appreciated~

Say what I take things for granted... Ever since when!!??!!

Receiving emails.... Complaining abt this and that, but have u ever put urself in our shoes and think of what we have done for the company. U onli see the bad things we've done, wat abt the good things?

And, i onli get this miserable pay, but I've to do lots of things... I had enough! Honestly~

Someone help me~ I'm going crazy!!!!!!

Sorry~

2007-09-02T21:53:00.000+08:00

I lost my ring...
The ring he left for me...
Moodless!

I'm so confused recently. I really dunno wat I want. If you happen to read this. I just wanna tell you I'm sorry. I just don't feel like meeting up at the moment.

I dunno why, in the day, I made up my mind to meet you, but at the last minute I back out. I dunno wat to say, except sorry.

我不想忘记你

2007-09-02T12:06:00.000+08:00

我在向前走却像在退后
我在用想念狂欢寂寞
越快乐就越失落
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

一个人不懂什么是拥有
两个人不懂怎么把握
越在乎就越脆弱
爱将我们高高举起以后
再让心学会坠落
怀念这宽阔的天空
虽然那里空气很稀薄

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

我努力想起你笑着哭泣
让自己深爱你再学会放弃
我不想忘记你
就算可以
我宁可记得所有伤心
我努力想起你苦也没关系
用祝福和感激勇敢失去你
爱你这个决定
虽然艰辛
我不说对不起

Heard this song from somewhere and love it!
Nice Song....
=)

2007-08-22T09:24:00.000+08:00

An unexpected phone call from the unexpected one some days ago.
Brought back memories some years back. Being asked whether I remember what happen in the past, I said no.

Not that I dun remember, I chose ~~to forget~~ not to remember.

Perhaps its better this way. When I ~~cannot remember~~ choose not to remember, I can then run away from reality.

本来

2007-08-21T09:31:00.000+08:00

下雨了站在玻璃门里头
并没有总是挂念着我
你带着雨伞来接我
夜晚了只剩老板跟我
像从前你抽着烟皱眉头
不知怎么安抚太任性的我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
手写的留言对象
已经不会是我

停雨了不必再躲雨了
已经过了该打烊的时候
还是不太想走
太晚了只能坐计程车
为什么想念着摩托车
常常会半路熄火的后座
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了
长长的简讯对象
已经不会是我
走在湿漉漉红砖道上
沿着导盲砖试着假装
的确有点困难
也许我就这样走路回家
反正你不再在乎几点
该几点回到家
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你再也不疼我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣
不会再保护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我
直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了
对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我
抱歉让你白费了这么多

不能说的秘密

2007-08-12T02:52:00.000+08:00

这是一个不能说的秘密。。。

A very nice show! A must watch movie~
I love it...

Watch it to catch the secret~

Heheehehee

ShoPpInG @ VivO

2007-08-05T13:17:00.001+08:00

Met Rinn yEsterday...
we went shopping @ Vivo.
Hee... Finally~! sHopping!

Bought a pair of heels each, and I also bought a bracelet and a ring! Heehee....
Rinn treated me to Marche...

Surprised visit to Sentosa... Nice!!

Photos to be uploaded soon~

Sick...

2007-08-03T10:29:00.000+08:00

Why do I keep falling sick recently???
First week- Sore Eyes
Following week - Flu!
I'm so weak! Lack of vitamin C!

Its only the 3rd week of work and I got 2 days MC, 3 days to be exact, but i came back to work today. Was so bored at home... Keep sleeping~ Hahaa...

Now in office.. at least better, got things to do.

Missed out shopping with Rinn, supposed to go shopping with her yesterday, but end up falling Sick! But... I still want shoppiNg! So long no shop liao~

Rinn... We shall shop!!! Hahahaa... And also watch Secret!!!!
I treat u watch! But dun forget u owe me a meal!
WahahaAHahaaha...

Carol also~ Owe me pedicure!!!
HahaHaa!!!!

See ya gers soon!!!

2007-07-29T11:03:00.000+08:00

Went for a new haircut yesterday.. at KR+ salon....
S$80 worth of haircut.... haha... but its free.. The stylist is good... haha...
Hmm.... I shall go back next timE!!!

2007-07-25T22:08:00.000+08:00

I finally got myself a ipod.
Its free anyway...

Haha...
New MP3 player.
New Job.

Time to work hard!
Earn more $$$!!!!!

Colleagues are nice....
Msn-ing with Rinn, we're so slack~
Nice chatting with her though. Like that time will pass a bit faster....

Going for a haircut this Sat. Time for a change of hairstyle~~~~
Let my hairstylist decide for me. Hope it'll turn out good...

Stay tune!!!!

+*+*mAddY giRL+*+*