:: TReaSurE THiNgs !!! ::

Listening To: La Ji Che - Mayday

I have got this friend who i've knowN for abt 6+ yeaRs...
we were not very close when we first kneW each other...
but kiNd of click with each other as time pass by...
den it will be shopping... playing vball and lots of crap together...
had lots of both happy and sad memoriEs with hEr...

we got even closer when we both worked at the same place...
and she even got into the same institude as mi..
we would like meet up for lunch, pool session, ... etc... almost daily...
but honestly, i'm really happy to have a friend like her...
she would be my listening ear whenever i needed someone to hear mi nag... or wat
She's the one whom u can trust secrets with... share personal things with and all sort of things..
She'll somehow come out with great advices.... maybe its juz her way of thinking.
U'll feel comfortable whenever u're with her.

thouGh sometimes i do get fed up of somethings she do..
but i've nv really took all those things in my heart..
i'll tend to forget things in a while....

Recently... everything seemEd to hAve changed
there's time that i flared up..
dUnno wat's wroNg with mi...
maybe was juz too mixed up with my confused feelings...
but.. from then on... things totally chanGed....
There seeMs to be A grEat, taLL and thicK wall in between us..
we seemed to get further and further...
actUally,... friends are juz like lovErs...
thats wat i think so...
aFter a small quarrel or wat...
they will somEhoW get closer oR wat...
but.. iTs diFferEnt for the bOth of uS...
we are like 2 magnets repeling ...

I apoloGiseD...
aNd " naively " thiNk that... the quarrel would be easily be forgotten and forgive....
NO... i'm wRong...
i tried to take initiative to tOk to hEr, aSking hEr out... oR wat...
bUt iT seeMs that she's noT quite inTeresteD....
Or Maybe i'm juz too sEnsitive?
Going oUt in GrouPs..... A kind oF woRsT??
she will Tok to her oWn clicKs...
And i will like tok to carol onli..
buT whEn carol'S not arouNd, i fEEl Kind of "eXtrA" in betWeen hEr frIends And mI,
sO.. i would always make myselF go firSt..
ShE is nEar.. buT yEt faR...
iTs kinD of teRrible or should i say sad to haf all these happening...

i know i am, YES i am sometimEs quiTe attitude... oR wat..
buT... i seLdom rEally MeaNt wat i saiD duRing those angry momEntS of mine....
have i gone too Far thiS time?
Or iTs juZ that we've never really knoWn eAch othEr fully...

hId all THinGs in my heArt foR a lonG timE....
diDn't Wan to think oF iT~ buT.. i juZ caN't hElp doinG so..
i aCtEd norMal in front of frienDs..
tryiNg to talk like we used to ...
buT thE feeliNg/ rythm wAs no therE...

soMetimEs i tell myself..
"tiMe will heLp to heal thinGs.."
"We're thE saMe aS beFore..."
buT Am i ReaLLy rigHt?

GirL... [ think u knoW who u aRe ]
jUz wAnna tell u...
i really trEasure ouR friEndship....
EveNthoUgh i May be A biT " zhen dui" you In betweeN conVersaTions...
buT its juz puRly a joKe to keEP friENds arouNd us EntERtAined...
our fRiendship haD beeN going on foR yeaRs...
And i do hopE thaT iT will contiUe tiLL the enD....
HoPe tHat SooN... evEryTHing wiLL bE back To noRMal...



And aLso.... Carol...
thankz for like keeping mi accompany recently.. KTV sessIon, shoppIng.... All sorts oF craPpy things... u'Re alsO onE that i really treAsure our friEndshiP. but i reAlly hoPe tHat all of us Can be like lAst tIme... a get together... foR coffEe att TCC, StarbuCks, K-boX, sentOsa,... Etc... i'M reaLly rEally vERy reLiveD anD SupER haPpy hAving u aS a Best friENd.. :)